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Grave Intentions (LP)

by S.O.B.

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It’s the darkness I seek and in shadows I find the weakest parts of myself where I awaken my mind. I’m the criminal kind. I was born into sin. A sinner with nowhere to go. There’s a demon within me. He's the devil you know. I’d rather reap then sow and toe some boring moral lines than keep on biting my tongue to slow these mortal appetites. So let there be light in this hell we know and we can dance with angels in our heaven below. I hope it rains on your parade and all the witches float so I can watch you fade away from my optimist boat. And as you’re sinking you’ll see me still pissing vinegar on the heads of those drowning now that the tides have turned.
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Mata Hari 03:44
I’m blending in like a chameleon. A shapeshifting reptilian shedding skin like a snake in sheep’s clothing. And depending on the situation I’m in I’m playing hide and seek with myself 'cuz when I’m someone else it’s like I’m on a vacation. Not everybody wants the truth. Some of us gotta lie to be loved. What nice a surprise. I got a new disguise. I’m hypnotized by that look in your eyes but paralyzed thinking maybe you see me. To me it’s all a game so if you want to take aim you better be shooting straight 'cuz you can’t place blame on a moving target. So who you going to believe? Me? Or the one you perceive? That’s not a heart on my sleeve. It’s a way to deceive you like a sneak movie preview. And will you ever find out what I'm all about? Probably never I doubt because I'm wearing a mask on this expressionless face to boot. Well, I'm just out to impress. To leave an impression, I guess, because I want all my guests to be obsessed with the questions they already have answers to. Damn, I could do this all day but I don't have time to play so if you want a parlay you better walk this way or run to your hiding place. And, yeah, it's all a big tease but, hey, you look good on your knees when the camera's just right and the angle's so tight you can't turn to talk to me. So what I'm trying to say, what I'm really trying to convey, is that you will never know who you're talking to.
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I'm hanging out with the dead because the living have died. I'd rather be here instead of dying on the inside. I'll bring flowers and wine. Drink for hours with you. Spend my nights in divine conversation. I'm making love to your ghost. Enjoying talking to you. Tell you I'm not letting go. Pretend that you're crying too. We watch the sun coming up. I draw a heart in the dirt. I don't want this night to stop. I can't go back to the hurt. I'll bring flowers and wine. Shower petals on you. Spend my nights in divine conversation. This day will end in death, my friend. This night begins with you in here. Each date of death I don't regret Each breath I kept for this moment with you, my dear. I'll bring flowers and wine. Spill my glass over you. Spend my nights in divine conversation. These cemetery nights last forever. This day will end in death, my friend. This night begins with you in here. These dates of death I won't forget Each breath I kept for this moment with you, my dear.
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It pales in comparison, all the damage that you've done to me. I fail to see the logic in your hypocrisy. I'm standing naked on the edge of every bridge that you burned down and now I'm sitting in the center of your unforgiving flame. I blame myself for the monster you became. It's cold and lonely on the ledge. I'm scared to death but not afraid. I wonder how it's going to feel to finally be freed of falling in love with you (and everything you put me through) of fading away into (another distant memory) of facing the awful truth (that we were never meant to be) of never knowing who to believe. It's cold and lonely on the ledge. I'm scared to death but not afraid. You can't imagine how it feels to finally be freed of all of this, of all your shit.
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So much for common sense 'cuz it all ends in violence anyways. I want to see your face when those fangs come out to smile at you. The world's gone crazy. The only way to stay sane is to lose your mind. And so we find ourselves at a loss alone on this strange island. The world’s gone crazy. The only way to stay sane is to lose your mind. The truth we're facing is that we're already dead, not just left behind. Kill the beast. Cut its throat. Spill its blood. Do it now. The death of innocence. Ignorance will get the best of us. No more intelligence. We're savages descending into madness.
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So Below 03:02
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Little Robot 03:24
Hey, little robot, tell me what you're thinking when you're listening to me. Say, little robot, do you want to hear my thoughts on privacy? I give you something you want. You give me something I need. We give each other something good, so good that it ends up on their feed. Gee, little robot, can you keep a secret from our friends on the line? Please, little robot, if there was a contract tell me where did I sign? I give you something you want. You give me something I need. We give each other something good, so good that it ends up on their feed. You give me something I want. I give you something you need. We give each other something good, so good that it ends up on their feed.
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I'm no stranger to your controversy. The things that you do are killing me but I kind of like your dark company. The psycho in me needs chemistry. And though you bite the hand that feeds the bleeding stops after a while. I want to take you to church. I want you praying for me. I want to give you a purpose on Sunday morning. The smell of your death. Your leather jacket. The breath on my neck for one last kiss. Your ancient demise. The black in your eyes. The dangerous way you exist. With grave intentions I oblige for I'm oblivious to you.
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Let's Die! 03:08
Into a shallow grave. No soul that’s left to save. Forever just a slave to therafter for when the body found beneath the deeper ground no longer hears the sound of their laughter. So let's die tonight. Let's die tonight. Let's die! A buried memory this shared reminder be that no one’s ever free from afflication like a broken souvenir upon a shelf somewhere near mirrors that will bare no reflection. And those that gather here now face their greatest fear and know the truth’s that we’re no exception. I want to die tonight. I don’t want to live. Another vacant chair. Another seat to spare. A table with no fare. Empty glasses.
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Deep Creep 03:33
I'm coming through the floorboards of your sanctuary and bumping ugly pretty hard for a ceremony. I love it when you deep creep on our matrimony and covet every corner of this casualty. I'm your backdoor man yet I'm kicking in your front entrance. This is the part where you start running from me. I summon demons to kill every devil you know. I come in peace and go to war when the fighting is slow. I'm creeping on you. Please don't turn your back on me now. I'm deep inside you. Am I allowed? At first it hurts but it gets worse if you can't take the pain. At last you find that pain makes living something worth the dying for.
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Fata Morgana 03:13
Ghosts in windows cast no shadows, speak in whispered violent outbursts. Silhouettes on heathen chateaus. Ashes in the old bordellos. I'm ignus infatuus. A status of what has been. A symbol to all of us. A sign of where we're heading. Useless witchcraft. Forewarned/backslashed. Hear no evil, Silent Devil.
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Claws Sharp 03:02
Every voice that I obey speaks to me in such a way that I don't doubt anything they have to say about me. Are they really talking to me? Tell me. Now is the time to shout. It’s the time to shout it out loud. It’s the time to shout it lout loud. Shout it out loud. Shout it out. Maybe I might let you in on a little secret I’ve been keeping. How can I trust you not to tell? Don’t sell me out. Will you sell me out? Please tell me. Now is the time to shout. It’s the time to shout it out loud. It’s the time to shout. It’s the time to let it all out. It’s the time to shout. It’s the time to let it all out. It’s the time to let it all out. Let it all out. Let it out. It's noise. Joyless opinions employed by mindless objectives. And that's how it ends. How it began. How it's always been. How it'll always be. I see two birds through a glass ceiling but my feelings are too hurt to throw anything. They're just flying away as I lie to myself.
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Abandon everything. Abort your social mission. Admit that you’re not smart enough to know your own position. Allow yourself to breathe. Attempt to live a little. Assume that you’re too dumb to know this dust will never settle. Apologize. Move on. Escape this modern drama. Appreciate, evaluate, and wait for modest trauma. Apocalyptic scars. Apocalyptic bruises. Apocalypse is ‘round the corner but we’re busy mourning corpses of our former selves. It sells itself. For every summer of blood there’s a winter to bleed you dry. For every a valley that floods there’s a mountain too high to climb. For every desert there’s death. For every city there’s writing on the proverbial walls that'll fail to be seen. Why am I always bleating like a goat in heat? Why do I always beat dead horses for a ride? Why? Is it because I never I lived my life the way you wanted me to? Is it because I’m not afraid to leave the trees for the street less taken? The way the world's right now I think I'd rather die then take your advice and try to make it in my own.

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released January 5, 2020

Written/Recorded by Summer Of Blood
Mixed/Mastered by Sean McCall at 2AFPT Studios

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