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Jambuka (LP)

by RYAN RICHARDSON

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1.
I want to go skating in the sun. I want to go skating for fun but I know what's going to happen. I'm going to fall and break something 'cuz I'm too old for skating and too fat for fun.
2.
I am a jackal standing naked on one leg consuming shit. I never sit down. I never go to sleep. I'm breathing the air in deep. I refuse your offerings. I refuse your ways. Sgnireffo ruoy esufer I. Syaw ruoy esufer I. I am a jackal standing naked on one leg consuming shit. I never sit down. I never go to sleep. I'm breathing in the air.
3.
AA 01:45
This was once such a nice place to live. Now it's just a nice place to die young in. This was once such a nice life we had. Now it's just a nice life we hate. This was once such a nice place to live to die.
4.
Abrasive 02:21
People have told me that I'm an abrasive person. That I have an abrasive personality. People have told me, and they can be quite persuasive, that I'm not only abrasive I'm also abstract. Well, what's up with that? Yeah, what's up with that? What's up with that? Yeah, what's up with that? People have told me that I'm an abrasive person. That I have an abrasive personality. People have told me that, and they can be quite persuasive, that I'm not only too abrasive I'm also too abstract. Well, what's up with that? What's up with that? Yeah, what's up with that? What's up with that? I'm not down with that. What's up with that? What's up with that? Yeah, what's up with that? What's up with that? I'm abrasive. Abrasive. I guess I'm abrasive. Oh well.
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Aproposeur 03:30
Life is like high school and I'm skipping class 'cuz livin' ain't easy when your head's up your ass. The students are boring, all the stories they tell. This ain't no school hall. This is Hell. Your teacher's are lying 'cuz they don't really know the questions you're asking. It's all just for show. It's all just a game, man, and ain't shame, man. I know, but you don't gotta play. You can just say "no". There's no way out once you're in. Don't let them win. Don't let them win again. There's no way out. Oh shit. Life is like high school and I'm skipping class 'cuz livin' ain't easy when your head's up your ass. Yeah, it's all just a game, man, and ain't it a shame, man? I know, but you don't gotta stay. You can just go home. There's no way out. No shit.
7.
Jason had his drums set up in the basement. Alex had his bass. It was a replacement. They tried to write a jam. Something in 5/7. They were trying to start a band with their best friend Kevin. Bands are dumb. They called themselves Loafy after a piece of toast. They laughed about it ironically. Kevin laughed the most. They tried to write some songs so they could play some shows where they'll invite all their friends but nobody will go.
8.
Bawdy Boy 02:04
I got up late out of bed. I got a song in my head. So what. It doesn't make any sense. I want to get up and dance. So what. I'm tired of moving around to the sounds that I've heard before. I'm wired and need a release. I gotta go and feed this beast. I'm a bawdy boy. I'm going to borrow all your toys. I'm a bawdy boy. I'm going to borrow all your toys. I'm a bawdy boy. I'm going to borrow all your toys. I'm a bawdy boy. I'm going to use them to make noise. I got a story to tell but I won't tell it so well. So what. It's 'bout Adam leaving Eve for someone named Steven. So what. You get so bent out of shape that you become something you're not. It doesn't make any sense but you get up and dance anyway.
9.
Boh 02:34
I don't know. I don't care. Whatever. Boh. Boh? Boh. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ Boh. I like it weird, man. I like it dumb. Fuck up the mind. Fuck up the brain. This is ludicrous. Pure hypocrisy I say. Boh. Boh. Boh. I don't know. I don't care. Whatever. Boh. I like it weird, man. I like it dumb. I like it raw. I suck my thumb. Come on. Fuck up the mind. Fuck up the brain.
10.
Bygoner 03:09
Never one to kiss and tell. Always changing every lock inside your cell. Hit the bottle. Win a prize. Playing shadows on the walls in your disguise. You kept on looking at yourself in a mirror that belongs to someone else. You're leaving us beside ourselves, buddy. Goodbye, Bygone. You're gone. You're gone for good. So long. Our hearts, they break for you. Our unspoken fears come true. We're all guilty of the crime of wasting time until the day when we can't wait to hear the truth of all the words you wouldn't say but now it's too late to know why you had to die.
11.
It hurts to breathe sometimes knowing you share the air with me. I'm done compromising. I don't care if you can't understand that. I'm free. No more lies to tell myself. No more truths to hide. It hurts to think sometimes knowing you thought the things you do but I don't sympathize anymore. I'm feeling California every day. I'll see you on the other side. I'll see you at the beach. I'm done pretending I'm New York. I'm a California Peach.
12.
Compromise 01:52
It's a lesson learned. You won't get your turn. You don't get to complain. You're a human being. We were promised compromise. You'll do as they say and they'll get away with it 'cuz they know something you don't: Revolution's not remote control.
13.
Fashism 02:19
I tuck in my shirt. I do up my hair. My pants match my shoes. My tie's too tight. My hat is alright. I tip it ever so slightly. I'd tip it to you but you are not here. Fashion police, take me away. I'm guilty.
14.
Gaps 02:41
You come to me like a broken toy in misery begging me to fix you but I can't fix what I think is perfect. I can't fix what's not really broken. We fill gaps. We see ourselves in constant need of repair but I don't care that our parts don't work. I only care that we can fall apart together. And if we're falling apart then let's all fall apart.
15.
I think the government is coming after me and I thought somebody should know. If I go missing someday you will hopefully see it's more than conspiracy. Gnomon, don't you get to me. Gnomon, won't you let me be. There's someone hiding in the bushes, in the trees. I hear them breathing quietly. I wonder if they're listening, talking to themselves. I wonder if they're recording. Act alone. Die alone. Act alone. Control.
16.
God's A Punk 01:49
I found God in a church where the kids jerked around. Safety pins in her cross. Halo bleached. Preaching Crass. I found God in a club dancing to Dub Reggae. Dress was torn. No shoes on. Eyes were closed. God's a punk.
17.
No, maybe I can't win. Maybe the only thing I can do is just take everything he's got. But to beat me, he's going to have to kill me. And to kill me, he's gonna have to have the heart to stand in front of me. And to do that, he's got to be willing to die himself. I don't know if he's ready to do that. I don't know.
18.
Jalipaz 04:15
Stand by your friends. They're more than just a face in front of you. Standby, my friends. I understand it takes some time to get through. Abandon your plans. There's nothing's so important in the end. If shit's out of hand find a place amongst the ones you love. That's enough. Everyone above me sees me as a I am every day I feel unseen. Everywhere I look I see them staring back, staring back, back at me. I talked to God inside a photograph and it made me laugh, and it made me cry. I talked to God inside a photograph and it made me crack a joke and smile. I talked to God inside a photograph and it made me sad, and it made me violent. I talked to God inside a photograph and then I died. It's confusing when his audio's denied and confusion wins the hearts of those who tried to confuse us all by calling us by name then confessing to the demons that we blame. Stand by your friends. They're more than just a face in front of you. Standby, my friends. I understand it takes some time to get through. Abandon your plans. There's nothing's so important in the end and when shit's out of hand find a place amongst the ones you love. Hope that's enough. Everyone above me sees me as a I am every day I feel unseen. Everywhere I look I see them staring back, back at me, back at me.
19.
Javelinaz 02:12
I'm a teenage death machine. I got a pocket full of pistol and a magazine. I eat Hot Tamales. Drink soda pops mixed with Mad Dog 20's that I stole from the shop. I hop cheap drugs and skate the bends. Make friends with "Javelinaz" that'll end up dead. My head's on fire. My soul's petrol. Ya, I'm out of control. Oh, I'm out of control. I was a red light runner. Now I'm a sinner no more. I'm a sinner no more. I'm a sinner. I drop bad acid for a good time. I chop Karate at a party like committing a crime. I'm high driving fast in my desert prime bumping Stooges in my Subaru. Nickel and dimed. I might go bowling or smoke a bowl. I'm not out of control. No, I'm not out of control. I go where I want when I want but I caught myself before I was the lesson I taught.
20.
Life's a fight you that can't win even when you want to but if you can take it on the chin you can get up again. That's motivation. It'll beat you down. It'll rough you up. It'll try to defeat you if you let it. Don't sweat it. So go the distance. Take the hits. Time's undefeated. Go the distance. Take the hits. Time's undefeated. Make the best of it. That's motivation. Life's a fight you that you can win if you want to. If you can take it on the chin you can do anything. It'll beat you down. It'll rough you up. It'll try to defeat you if you let it. Don't let it. That's motivation.
21.
No rest for the wicked. No sleep for the dead. No time to be nekked. No thoughts in my head. No fun for a funeral. No future for friends. No escape from the consequences. No escape from the end. Fuck your modern kulture. No sex on Sunday. No style. No class. No values. No morals. No future. No past. No ancient translations. No modern regard. No apology is necessary. No thank you. Fuck your modern kulture. Fuck you.
22.
I have all but been defeated as I lay dying on this bed of nails and each dark and waking hour is starting to get to my head. I am curled up in a ball of anguish. I feel small and useless against everything. I hear voices calling out to me. They say, "Come. Join us in the hall of your ancestors." I have all but been forgotten in the memories of friends from the cold streets of Manhattan to these low Sonoran desert ends. I am tired of living in this invisible world of my inevitable death. Every breath I take burns my mouth with the fires of my own mortality. Mono no aware no more. Mono no aware.
23.
You grow up and get married and have a couple kids but the city is too crowded. You don't fit in your apartment. So you pack up your belongings and you move "somewhere else". You need a little more space. Oh, it's so roomy here in Hell. Now you wake up every morning with a shit look on your face. You miss the big city. What a pity. What a waste. But you try to be happy by drinking whiskey every day. And your backyard looks so lovely when your shit-faced. I go to work. I go to sleep. And then your old friends come to visit and they regale' you with their tales of all their fun adventures that they've been having without you in the city but your backyard looks nice. I go to work. I go to sleep.
24.
I don't know you. You don't know me but somehow we get along just fine. I want a face to a name. I want a name to face. I want to place you in pictures in my pocket. I want a name to face. I want a face to a name. I want to see you for real. We've never met and never will but we're still friends for the time being. Nameless faces. Friends for real. I want a face to a name. I want a name to face. I want to place you in pictures in my pocket. I want a name to face. I want a face to a name. I want to see you for real. I want a face to a name. I want a name to face. I want to place you in pictures in my pocket. I want a name to face. I want a face to a name. I want to see if you're real.
25.
You make mashed potatoes. I make apple pie. You say, "See ya' later." I say, "Why?" You're an operator. I'm a broken phone. You are just a hater. Leave me alone, Jerkoff. The proof is in the pudding. The truth is on the wall. You "coulda", "woulda", "shoulda". Don't pick up if I call. You are not a good friend and I am not a fool. Our friendship's at an impasse. You're an asshole, Jerkoff.
26.
Something's gotta give. Something's gotta change. Someone's just trying to live in this strange new world. Somewhere in a state of sadness and despair he finds himself stronger than before. Somehow he gets up every day even when it hurts. Some bodies aren't meant for this earth, for what that's worth. He sees himself in a mirror of colored glass, shattered in a past that he painted in broken promises, in empty threats, in self-abuse, in death, in observation and bad reports, in judgement, in jury, injured but self-aware, willing to make sacrifices to change his ways. He will remain here in this strange new world.
27.
Pizza on the weekend. Gotta pick my toppings. Pizza on the weekend. Gotta pick my sauce. Not from New York. Not from New Haven. Not from Chicago. Not from Rome. No. No? Arizona. What? Muy delicioso. Yuck.
28.
I've never taken a life before. I'm so nervous. I hope I get it right. I never thought it would come to this but it's time to commit to my demise. It's only my social suicide. I'm so tired of the pride and prejudice. I have to kill myself to be rid of the dead-end nonstop constant nonsense. Your opinions that mean so much don't mean anything to anyone. Your precious comments are undermined by the fact that you don't know anything. You're acting out like a child on a soapbox made of shit. You don't know how to live in the real word. That's it, isn't it?
29.
The alcoholic and me are busy watching TV. Please just leave us alone. so we can scroll on our phones. The kids can play on their own. We're watching the Twilight Zone. We can't be playing around. There's a few more to drown. The alcoholic and me just need something to eat then we can get off this couch but the couch is comfy. Can't we just stay here some more and finish what's left to pour? We promise we'll get up soon right after this new cartoon. Just let us finish the show before you put us to bed. Two heads are better than one. None's better than dead. The alcoholic and me.
30.
Death is in fashion. Dying's in style. Your life isn't violence? Then you're in denial. Stay on the warpath and you'll end up dead. You turning your head now? Playing pretend? This is America.
31.
This is not a punk song and I am not a punk. I'm just a drunk with a microphone. This is not a drunk song. I'm as sober as a skunk just stinking up the place with my own brand. This is not a punk song but it's punk to me and no one's going to tell me otherwise. This is not a punk song. It couldn't be and if you could see right now you'd know why. This is not a punk 'cuz I'm not punk. I'm just some dude with a drum machine. This is not a punk song but it's punk enough for me to put out while I'm in-between bands. This is not a punk song. It's a pièce de résistance. A masterpiece in my mind. This is not a punk song. It's not even really a song but I am a skunk and I am drunk and I can't stop drinking my stinky-ass wine. Yeah. Wine on, Punk Rockers. See you on the other side.
32.
Am I in this pit until I die? Why can't I get out of it? This little alien keeps walking around until he falls down again. It's going to take a miracle to get out of here. He's extra-terrestrial but so full of shit from all the candy that he eats. What are the cheat codes? Can I just quit? This is giving me anxiety. I should bury this game in the ground but I'll carry the shame of not finishing it.

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